Your "conditions" are a little different. Specifically, how much experience you have to be at the lower edge of the wind possibilities for even experienced kiters. Couple that with the fact you will be trying a new kite from what you have started learning on, and you will be very frustrated.
Relaunch in the water is absolutely the key to learning. So it is good you don't discourage easily. Relaunch on a 19m Edge is tough for anyone in light winds or when the wind is laminar to the point where you have enough wind more than 4m's off the surface of the water to fly, but not enough wind to re-launch below 4m's off the water. In that case, bigger kites are of no real help.
Another problem with big light wind kites, for a beginner still learning to control stall, is the downwind yank you get when you do recover a stall in the back of the window. This even happens to me and more experienced kiters. While the kite is stalled, it is moving backwards deeper in the window. When the stall recovery (reattaching flow over the top of the kite) happens, you get a pretty powerful yank in line with the kite lines. And this yank is always more downwind after a stall than a simple gust hitting a kite on the edge of the window. This means you lose ground much more quickly with a bigger kite (more pull) if it is stalling and recovering constantly. So if you are still a this stage, or kite at a location with lots of turbulence that induces stall, you need to be on a kite size that won't yank you downwind so fast. Thus the paradox of a 12m kite keeping a beginner upwind for longer than a 17m kite.
This is your biggest gear issue, not kite size. You need a light wind TT. I can't imagine anyone here would disagree with me on this. So that is my challenge to other forum users - anyone think the OP should be on a 131x39 board in 9knots of wind on any size kite when the OP weighs 105kg???????
The best trick I ever learned was me (100kg) flying past other kiters (70kg) when I was on a 13.5m kite and other kiters were on 17m kites. Build your underpowerd skill at the beginner stages when the safety of being underpowered is more of a benefit than at any other time in your kiting experience. Later you can move up to perfectly powered, and occasionally overpowered.azoele wrote: ↑Mon Nov 12, 2018 3:24 pmI know I get hugely more frustrated by not going out than I ever would by experiencing difficulties due to large kites and complex-low-wind conditions... hence my desire for a kite that at least gives me a chance to be out there.
I figure, there'll be lot of time to learn tricks and play in better winds... and I'll have much more experience by then than if I had to wait for conditions to be proper and practice only then.
But the best thing you will learn on a 12-14m beginner friendly kite is to loop it in light winds. You can't expect to develop that skill with a 19m kite (though you can apply it once developed). Looping an underpowered kite for more power and coordinating that loop with a precisely timed upwind turning path is the skill that allows the use of a smaller kite than most other "park and ride" kiters, even when you out weight them.
But no matter what, you have to fix your board size issue.