Kiting is an addictive drug. I am addicted. I am in a similar boat now - fickle winds and obligations. Circumstances have dictated I can't have my drug now. A chemical addict just needs money and the drug can be had. Sneak into a closet and sniff away. Kiters need a set of circumstances to come together, wind and time. You throw the family and your job in there and sessions become rare or much less than you want.
I've got buddies who are single, no kids, good jobs and they've got 5 trips to Hatteras set up this year. If you've got a family who needs you and you value them then you must give up a fair amount of sessions. That is saying "No" to the drug.
You have achieved a perspective that is giving you balance. You have been forced to consider balance. The real test will be when you get a couple sessions in a row and get that buzz again.
I have no answers - I am still fighting this balance everyday